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An Era has Ended [22 Nov 2009|06:43pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

An era has ended after four and half years. Although, I felt it peak in year one, it rode a long successful tenure finally culminating in year four. What exactly does this bode for me in the future? I am not exactly sure. 2009 in my eyes has been a bit of a disappointment with such an emphasis on a significant and profound change within me, nothing ever mounted. That is an understatement, this year, though not as bad as perhaps areas in 2007 and 2008 has been riddled with anxiety and fear. Now with the long lasting post in my life gone, I am not too keen on exactly what will materialize.

Could I analyze what went wrong and what needed to change, I certainly could but it seems too obvious. It's not important or is not worth the time to think about everything that went wrong or even right but happened to be wrong. It is certainly relaxing in some ways to be without, however, we will see how long that lasts. I assume it will be for some time and that is fine, I am in no rush. I am not going anywhere anytime soon, though, I feel my ultimate dream is now too cloudy to ever be realized. I don't even know if I want that dream anymore, it is a sad reality for me. I could harp on my failures in all my areas but those will not change the way I feel.

With some reflection, I now am approaching the five year mark on our family trip to Frippe Island for thanksgiving in 2004. Just thinking back, I was a senior in High School and life was too good perhaps. The times were different, people were different, and I was different. I certainly liked myself better during that time. I had much more confidence and was much happier. It was during a time in my life that I enjoyed more than I realized. Hackisack, Oasis, OTI bowling, friends, and an overwhelming feeling of self-satisfaction. It bothers me more that the time in my life is slowly fading in the distance. I was 18, not 23, and everything was right. In contrast to now where I feel everything never feels right. I hate it, not just the way I feel, but external factors that have changed. In 2004, my dad was President of OTI, now he is some VP of a glass company in Pennsylvania. I am not even sure if we still have our beach house at Frippe or if it was sold. My mother is at home in Mississippi and at least my brother lives with her. Then there is me, who has become more reclusive and used his time in Tuscaloosa to get away from everything. I feel everything is scattered and divided, and I feel that way figuratively.

So, Thanksgiving is approaching and I just don't even want to go back to Columbus. I've grown to loathe that place more and more as the years fly by. I wish we could go back to Frippe and everything would return to the time that I felt was right. But we can't and it will never be the same. With the end of an era, I feel even more lost than I was before. I only hope that I can find whatever was lost in time to begin the next era of my life.

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XoN [03 Apr 2009|03:14am]
[ mood | creative ]

I released my name as Oricus and was found in Hong Kong around 2022. I had been trained extensively in an elite training program called the Series 5. The Series 5, as stated before, was an extensive program funded by the XoN organization, now a global corporation, that focused on intensifying mind and body through rigorous programs in order to create agents for governmental pacifying. In other words, we were the gatekeepers of knowledge and the silencers of talkers.

Since, I still have little recollection of the events that transpired over my training due to an unforeseen failure in a mission, I cannot divulge any of my experiences, and I cannot say for certain if the cybernetic implants were triggered to wipe my mind due to an unforeseen failure, upon further speculation, I believe there certainly was a link. Nevertheless, a Westerner found me in Hong Kong, though at first I had forgotten much of everything, little by little fragments of my mind began to reform. This Westerner would appear to find me by chance but that was never the case. He had been tracking XoN agents, though, he never explicitly told me how; he did, however, debrief me of his current situation, which was to find me. Perplexing would of been an understatement, according to rule XoN did not have any files of any of their Series 5 Agents other than a serial #. It was their secrecy that allowed XoN agents move through the shadows and remain undetectable.

The Established Agent:

Various XoN agents as stated before were branded with a serial # on the lower back as identification. There was one list of all the serial # in a database, however, the XoN organization kept nothing more on any record. To keep tabs, they implemented cybernetic devices, trackers, wires, and uses of various nanotechnology. An agent at all times would be susceptible to a complete termination if they ever compromised their line of work, not a very promising incentive. Through XoN, each agent would be sent an encoded message which would detail their instructions or orders.

Encoded Messages:

Each Agent (from knowledge gathered) would go through an intensive course in decoding and encrypting data. Certain levels of data were easier to decode. These levels were mostly rudimentary work for the agent usually coming from a lower levels of command. Messages after being decoded often mapped out their basic instructions for their work. Rendezvous points, certain meetings, potential targets, threats, and information pertaining towards potential XoN involvement.

What is XoN?

XoN is an organization within a global conglomerate that specializes in Research and Development of various products. The Global Conglomerate known as Abstega reaches throughout the world and came to fruition during the global economic downturn of the late 2000's. Through Abstega, (Pre 2016) XoN organization can remain a privately held organization.

What is Abstega?

Massive Global Conglomerate formed in 2011 by the merging of several of the world's largest financial firms, banks, and corporations. During that time Abstega was able to gain market shares in nearly every continent especially North America and Europe. Due to the failing financial firms and massive amounts of debt being taken on by the United State among others, Abstega sought a position to back American Currency at an alarming interest. In accordance with the World Bank, IMD, and Swiss Banking Corporation, Abstega was able to assume most of the US Debt and gain significant political influence in the process.

Abstega Prospering Pre - Massive Corporate Merger

(Will write more later)

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2004 - 2006 The Best Years of My Life [26 Sep 2008|08:51am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

I am sitting at my computer around 8:52am Central time on a Friday the 26th of September in the year of our Lord 2008. I have had a full week of school that included a few tests, missed classes, and a friend who engaged his pregnant girlfriend. I would say what a week but that is not exactly how I am feeling. Honestly, I would love for nothing better to be asleep right now, but lately I have been having problems with that department. It started this week again, tests, bringing much unneeded stress and unfortunately led to sleep deprivation in the process. I digress in some way knowing that at least I do not have class today, and I could at any time attempt to sleep. However, this has brought me to the point of writing this journal entry, it has nearly been a year since my last one. I decided to read all that I had wrote and noticed that a lot has not changed. Go figure, ales, I have resorted to pondering the times of my life once again during my insomnia. I keep pointing to this three year stretch that unfortunately became the climax of my existence, I will tell you the tale.

I have lately again been yearning for the past more so than I have in some time. This, like usual, has put me in a sour mood in a lot of ways. One can begin to document exactly what made that three year stretch more significant than the last two years I have been living, but I think a thorough understanding will be sufficient.

I remember 2004 extremely well, there was an air excitement, there was an air of understanding, there just was a good feeling about the year. Considering that I consider 2003 to be somewhat of an aberration compared to the next three years. I dealt with a lot of emotional feelings during that year one any pubescent boy of the age of 16/17 would understand. However, looking back on 03 I can't help but scorn its existence, always a dark picture of nighttime and hanging around Columbus, princess, wal-mart, people I was interested in. Suffice to say, that year although had bearing is not a fruitful topic I would like to discuss. I digress, 2004, on the other hand was a reality of experiences, discipline, and understanding. There were some firsts that year, most that I do not regret.

Everything seemed better in 2004, I think at first it started when Roger Federer won the Australian Open over Marat Safin. I met my first long standing Girlfriend, and shared my first kiss with her. I had quit the basketball team in December of 2003 for external purposes, however, I felt it made my social life more accessible and it is a decision that only around some of my close friends who I played with that I would say I slightly regret. In the end, it was what I wanted to do and I think it was a good decision. In 2004, I was going through a change in the way I perceived myself, I think it also somewhat has hampered me. I became much more conscious about my appearance and sought ways to improve upon it even if it wasn't a problem. At the time I do not think it was as severe as it could be now with how I perceive myself. More or less, it was a change that I thought would bring me more self-confidence and at the time it did. I could look upon it now and just see the error in my ways because of my disdain for the school I went to but that is beside the point. Life was good in 2004 and it would only get better.

Spring/Summer of 2004 came and I finished my junior year of high school with Academic Honors 4.0, exempt from all my final exams, won the chemistry award. Things were looking good, I got drunk for the first time, I didn't know years later that I would get drunk about every weekend. . . French Open 2004, was one of best tournaments I had witnessed in Tennis in years. I think it is important as well to note that Nadal did not win the tournament nor would he at the time, regardless of injury. Kuerten over Federer in the third round, Coria choking in the final and the subsequent castration of his manhood. Gaudio - Coria one of the best matches of the year, tennis back in 2004 is better than tennis in 2008 regardless of competition. Growing up watching the Sampras Era then into the current era, I felt 2004 was smack in the middle of this current era's reign. The emergence of Federer, the revival of Safin, the revival of Hewitt, the steady play of Roddick. I don't know I think it's just my opinion of how nostalgic I am, but the tennis was more interesting when some of my favourites were still relevant.

Summer 04 brought monumental amounts of fun, starting with Harry Potter Prisoner of Azkabaan, I remember seeing that June 4th, 2004 with Kendra. That movie changed my entire perspective on Harry Potter and lead the way in my completion of reading the novels. That movie is my second favourite, I will get to my favourite in a little while. More on, 2004, there was the vacation trip to Destin with James and R Nelson, that was a wild fun time. Good food, good fun, a lot Pimp my ride, a lot of the 2004 US Open (Golf), a lot of the Daily show and Comedy Central, getting sun burnt, staying at a nice condo, seeing Detroit dominate the Lakers, great trip. Then there was the Bad Horror Phobie Dollar films with Claire and Kyle, oh and I forgot to add about how much fun it was to see Yaktus during the month of May that year. Seeing Spiderman 2 with Claire and James. Placebo albums galore, Sleeping With Ghosts I think completely captures the March - May era of 2004. It at times tears me up thinking about it and the memories of that album and that song. . .

July of 2004 brought significant changes that would affect the rest of the year and encompassing my entire senior year. First, breaking up with my Girlfriend at the time, it was tough but I really wasn't ready for any long-term commitments and felt the time was right for us to move on. Secondly, the party at Jazz's that fucked my senior year up, well, I wasn't drinking but I was guilty by association. Still can't believe how ignorant I was back then, but can't help when Cops for some reason are just out to get ya and will make up bull shit like the curfew for fridays is not 12 its 11 and that it is 12 only on Saturday and Sunday. Regardless, if Johnny decided to stay at the house instead of run after us, the cop doesn't see a "white" kid in a black neighborhood (Johnny is Mexican btw)he wouldn't have gotten suspicious and busted the party. Well, my parents were less than happy considering I told them I stayed over at Johnny's (good one). Worst of all, I had a terrible feeling about it for some reason, I chalked it up to nerves, I just wish Jazz never asked me to go to the gas station to get cigarettes. Anyways, my parents lost all the trust that I had built and questioned that I was doing this every week when I told them I was staying at Johnny's, which was not true, but they would not believe it. I hate cops. . .

The rest of the summer went like a blur, I wasn't exactly happy about what happened, but I could not change it no matter how many times I would play over the situation and would say something different to the cops. Looking back on it now, I can just see how lame the cops were in their attempt to bust our fun. First they looked in the car because they were so sure there was going to be drugs, next, they were so sure they would find alcohol, sigh, fuck em'. Anyways, I was actually looking forward towards getting back to school since I couldn't do much for the rest of the summer. Little did I know that school year would have a profound impact on my life, at least I think it did.

August of 2004, Seniors 2005, well, the year started, a lot of the same rules though we could no longer wear sandals if you were a guy. Quite a dumb rule if you ask me but whatever. School starting, it was refreshing to get out of the house for a significant amount of time. We all made a new friend in Joan (Juan) Pronounced Juu-wan (Catalan pronunciation). Joan was part of the ETI or something exchange program, he was from Cambrils Spain that was about 2 hours away from Barcelona. I would go to Spain the following summer with my friend Johnny to stay with Joan. At this time, that seemed like a millennium, I was just conscious of getting out of my parents control. Things were not all peachy but I remained in good spirits and my parents eventually gave me a 1:00 am curfew that they previously allotted back when I was a junior. I remember seeing Anna K and thinking this girl is attractive, then I think I took back those words when my legs would be red from the kicking and the grinding of her shoes during second period.

September, Claire's 18th, my 18th, fun at CJ's pizza, the party at CJ's was one of the bests things of that year. Just overall, a fun atmosphere, watching Sharapova play in the background. I can't believe it's been four years since that time. . . Buying Razorblade Romance, to this date, HIM's best album, buying Oasis' Morning Glory, those two albums make me remember fall 04 the most. I started bowling on my dad's Team that year, I ended up making a lot of money that year, it was some of the most fun I had ever had. I really miss that time, I only got to bowl one year but I made the most of it. The buckeyes that year were not as good as the previous two seasons but this year would prove pivotal towards the development of Troy Smith and the defense. By 2005, this team became Jim Tressel's most talented team he ever coached (IMO). I beat Metal Gear Solid 2 for the first time since buying the game. I realized how great the game was and I deprived myself for 3 years by not playing it. The Sims 2 came out September 14th that year, I still play it till this day.

October 2004, nothing really jumps out at me, Cast no shadow by Oasis only stands out. The Grudge, that movie sucked, I Remember seeing that with Kyle and Claire, man that movie sucked. A rare miss for Sam Raimi, but obviously it did well at the Box office.

November - Thanksgiving at the beach house, playing Poker with the Hills, listening to more HIM, I mean great times.

December - Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic 2, I played that game probably 40 hours straight, I was underwhelmed compared to the first game but I still enjoyed the game.

2005 would mark the best year of my life. It was as simple as that and I couldn't put it any better or any less. That year embodies every positive emotion I have ever felt, I can't look at any point of that year and feel negativity. The air was so positive, so exciting, I am about to cry thinking about how happy I was. I cannot begin to understand why this year means so much to me but looking back I can see where I might. I miss 2005 like I would miss a lost love, I would do anything to transfix my body into my former self back and relive that year. There was so many rights and about no wrongs. I do not think I realized when that year went how much it would mean to me and how much I would do just to see it again just to experience it again. Just to experience that again would probably cause a spontaneous combustion of positive emotion that I would just explode. 2005 brings the most sensual feelings, not just sensitive, sensual, there is a state of pleasure I feel each time I look back on that year. There is also a sense of reality that I will never ever feel that way again. . . Every day it grows further, I hate that feeling. Right now I am thinking about every positive feeling and I don't even know where to start.

I do not think I could do it justice right now, I am going to take some time to really ponder 2005 and also what I might need to revise 2004. I really wish I would of written a 2005 year in review like I did with 2004, unfortunately, the 2004 one got me in some trouble in 2005, lol go figure. I'll explain later!

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The ol' Ode to my Lyfe [15 Oct 2007|03:05am]
[ mood | apathetic ]

Oh my Tale of Woe, so sad, and so worn out.  However, I feel like I am in a writing mood and will attempt to express my thoughts.  Time won't save our souls, I must move on from that.  It's late, 3:09, and when I complete this the time will be closer to 4 or even passed it.  Oh, well, that's how it goes, what goes, I'm not sure, time goes and that is a fact.  I just read my post from July, it's now the middle of October.  It really doesn't seem that long ago, but this year is going by rather quickly.  The other day my mother notified me about possible internships for the upcoming summer.  This startled me a bit and even put me in a sulky mood.  I really hate the idea that I actually have to do one of those but it's not so much the work but more so what it represents.  My little bubble of insecurities about growing up and getting a real job is about to burst.  No longer will I have the sanctity of school in which could hide me from what I fear the most.  I know I am not ready, not as a person, I am not mature enough.  You can say that is childish of me, I am not going to dispute that, however, I know that I am not ready for such a radical change.

What can I chalk that up to?  Fear, first and foremost, it is what prevents me from wanting to move on with life.  I really can't believe it, where did this time go, Freshman year seems so far away and sophomore year went so fast like it never existed.  I fucked up in Tax Accounting, I guess I took it too lightly, the class wasn't hard but I just felt depressed and worthless.  Already resigned to a fate of dropping the class before the test.  I didn't even give a maximum effort.  I take full responsibility for my blunder, if I kept up with the course it would of been a breeze but I prevented such an alternative.  I just hate school, but I hate life outside of it more.  I have a hard time with motivation, I really don't even like accounting it's just something I know I can get a degree in and make money.  What self-satisfaction am I going to get out of it when I don't even like it.  I feel I am creative yet not.  I cannot express it well enough to do something creative, more so, I appreciate creativity.  I honestly should be a history teacher.  It's one of the few things I like, and I know it's something that I wouldn't feel so pressured to be the best.  I honestly just don't give a shit right now.  I am just going through the motions because well that is what my parents expect from me.  If nothing else it would pain me no more than to let my parents down.  That's the only real motivation and as the days go by it lessens to some extent.  I am trying to make a concentrated effort the rest of the semester to make it to the rest of my classes.  What else can I do, I have an A in art history but I've already missed over the allotment of days and probably will lose major points because of it.  My grades in Management and Marketing are B but I've missed just about every class since our last test in both of those classes. 

Then there is the Evil Accounting 310 class which is made harder that it really ought to be, I mean, I've never made lower than an A in accounting, that stretches from High school all the way through Honors Accounting here at Bama.  Yet, in this instance, I feel like I am being cheated with whatever the fuck we are doing.  I sort of dread going to class, I never dreaded 210, but I just hate going to 310.  I feel like I am not really learning anything of real substance.  Perhaps I do not appreciate what is attempting to be taught or I just don't comprehend that.  Well, I'm pretty sure it's not the latter, however, I am not ruling out any possibility.  I guess the only thing I am sure of is that I hate accounting and business altogether.  However, that is my plight and it is something I need to rectify as my time at Alabama becomes shorter.  I really need to grab the bulls by the horn the rest of this semester, starting by studying for Management tomorrow. 

I've had enough about ranting about school.  I want to talk about brighter things.  We had a fall break this past week and I really didn't do shit.  I had majestic plans for the days off, but the combination of people just leaving and me being lazy, ended up with drunken baseball and a monotony of football games.  Well, so it is, but all is not lost, I have decided that I am going to become more healthy.  My method is simple, I am boycotting fast food chains and eating a combination of salad and some other delicious healthy item.  I also hope that I can save my parents some money in the process.  I think it is a win/win situation.  I have a fear of diabetes, I am not fat but I have gained some weight since summer and I feel that this part of just grabbing life by the horns.  The next thing I need to do is kick that smoking habit of mine.  I've actually reduced by a lot lately, that is, if I am not around certain people.  Peer pressure is critical it will determine my success or failure. 

I saw Black Rebel Motorcycle Club and Kings of Leon again.  It was a decent show, I don't know how much I like that Kings of Leon is rapidly growing into a Hat boy band, but, nevertheless, they are still good.  Black Rebel well they weren't as good as when I saw them in Birmingham in June, they did play 2 and 1/2 hour set that night.  However, they were still roawkin.

Johnny turns 21 this Saturday.  I guess that means I am going to Starkville to celebrate, I guess that's fun, I better not miss the Buckeyes.  Only my parents came for my birthday, albeit, it was a Tuesday, and no one else was 21 at the time either, and I may have gone to Starkville that weekend. . . That's beside the point, regardless, Johnny owes me plentiful for the amount of beer I bought him at Dave's that night.  I'll make sure to remind him. 

Oh, I could go into how much I hate how time passes by but that is another rant for another day.  :-\

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It's been too long [02 Jul 2007|12:24am]
And where has the time gone?  I guess I spent more time on Myspace ever since it became more popular.  But to see this is still alive I might as well give it a little attention.

The last time I wrote in this I was a Freshman in college, actually, it was my first Semester.  It really doesn't seem so long ago but soon it would be two years.  Two years ago I was a Freshman in college it really hasn't hit me that it is closing down.  I am a junior at the University of Alabama and I honestly do not want to know what lies ahead in the near future.  I am actually perplexed, staring at my screen, I am trying to figure out where the time went.  I can still see the skies in Denmark two summers ago.  Listening to the electric sounds of Roskilde, I can't believe that everyday it's falling away.  July 3, 2005, was the last day of Roskilde, I saw Interpol, I saw Bloc Party, I saw Bright eyes, and more. 

Oh well, I think 2005 is my favourite year, ever.  I don't know why it is, there is a feeling of great pleasure when I think back to it.  Something great happened, it's a year I'd love to travel back in time and just bathe in it.  It's weird, I can't explain anything behind it, but it seems like it was a defining year for me.  I went to Europe, I went to College, I grew my hair out and grew a beard.  The Last Harry Potter film came out that year which is a great feeling I get every time I watch it.  I think I have a strange obsession with letting time go, I hate how it passes and if I could go back to any instance I'd probably pick somewhere that highlighted everything I love about life.  I always have this strange view of 2005, I get it from all the trips back from Tuscaloosa to Columbus over the weekends.  It always has an overcast sky and the beginning lyrics of Televators from The Mars Volta are being played. 

The first moment I think back to a lot is a party out at Johnny's in October of 2005.  I don't know why that Party meant so much to me, I guess because all of my friends were there, all of them.  Televators strikes me because I never appreciated how good the song was two years prior to that time in 2003 when I bought their first LP.  I remember over that first semester that I found myself listening to the latter half of that Album increasingly more often.  I think of that half of the year with that song in my mind, it defines the time for me.  The party was no different, I think of Televators every time I think back to that moment.  It was beautiful and it didn't last long enough.  Notre Dame and USC were playing that Saturday.  It had so little to do with anything, that weekend, and yet I felt like it made me realize how everything is changing.  How life is always moving forward and I one day will have to accept I cannot stop it.  I want to preserve time every moment that I am experiencing an excess of joy. 

I deal with nostalgic feelings everyday.  I don't feel it's healthy, I feel it makes me resent that time goes forward, that I have to get older and I do not want that fate.  It makes me realize that every day these memories are getting further away and that I will one day be nothing that I am today.  We can try and recreate the events that preceded us, and that it would provide comfort.  AC Milan provided some relief with their linkage to 2005.  They beat Liverpool in Athens Greece this past year for the European Champions League avenging their 2005 loss in Istanbul Turkey in the same event.  It probably was the one soar spot of 2005.  May 25th a day that will be remembered for AC Milan's worst six minutes of Football that allowed their 3-0 lead to be equaled from the 54th minute to the 60th minute, ultimately leading to their defeat in penalties.  It will also be remembered for one of the greatest parties I've ever thrown on the same day.

July 4th is rapidly approaching.  Last year was bitter sweet as well in a way.  Germany was defeated by the Italians in the World Cup Semifinal, which wasn't so bad but still sucked.  However, I threw a monstrous American themed party, we had Toby Keith, The Boss, and many more great American songs.  We grilled hot dogs and drank some berr, I can't believe it's been a year.  I can't believe it, it's scary.

Roger Federer going for his 5th straight Wimbledon is scary.  I remember just 4 years ago in 2003 when he won his first grandslam.  Now in 4 years he has won 9 more, and he is now in the middle of his career.  I remember Sampras winning in 1997, I was in Tennessee visiting relatives that live in Knoxville.  Now ten years later another great chasing history is closing in on his 11th grandslam.  I wish I would have recorded more of Federer's great matches.  Like the 2004 US Open Final or the 2005 Australian Open Semifinal against Marat Safin where Federer lost in a valiant effort in 5 sets, one of the greatest matches ever seen by eyes.  These are all just distant memories, although, available on download over the internet, the quality will never be as crisp.  I guess, I wish I would have recorded many more than just Federer.  I wish I would have recorded Juan Carlos Ferrero's matches in 2002 and 2003 or Gustavo Kuerten's French Open runs in 97, 2000, 2001, and his Year End Championship in 2000 where he defeated Agassi and Sampras back to back to win the Championships and Year ending #1.  Hell, I would even record the 2002 Wimbledon where Hewitt won.  Tennis kills me the most on this time issue.  I've seen all these players and how injury has devastated Kuerten's career and to an extent Safin and Ferrero.  Even Coria during his reign as the King of clay during 2004 another year I loved.

Oh well, that is that, I have a hard time of letting go but that is how it goes, 2007 hasn't been the best of years.  There is hope, the fall always breathes new life into myself where most of my memorable moments seem to happen.  College Football reappears, UEFA Champions League reappears, Seria A Football reappears, and more more memories to relive all over again.
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[19 Oct 2005|12:33am]
So, tomorrow I get to meet Mr. Mixson for my awesomely steller grades in History! I feel sick blah! I am bored of school, I was kicking ass till my math test brought me down from my seemingly great buzz. I'm listening to Coast to Coast am and Kansas is playing lol! I remember the day I was leaving basketball camp with Stephen and his dad and they played some Kansas!

So I was thinking back to my English class the other day and our teacher was asking what we were doing this weekend. Well one student who seemingly had a good idea in my opinion expressed that he had plans this weekend. My teacher persisted to ask him what he was doing and whether he was going to some concert. To her dismay, the student mentioned in a high level of self-satisfaction, "No, I'm going to Party!" I shared the same great idea! and then I got sick and puked my ass off, due to an extreme headache I got before but it was worth it.

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[12 Oct 2005|12:19am]
[ mood | bored ]

So yesterday I pondered life with Claire at the Library on the quad, today I took two tests and made a 100 on the other and well I guess I probably failed the other, much to my dismay. Presently, I am sitting at my computer combing my hair with my hand and filtering through the ongoing number of discs near me.

Yes I'm bored, I hate history, tonight's discussion question was so tedious, I had the most trouble interpreting the secondary sources.

What is there to do!

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[10 Oct 2005|07:54pm]
hey i am chris. yes. i am chris. i suck weiners. haha.
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[10 Oct 2005|01:41am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

So today I thought I was going to be faced with some adversity but even with a gimp racquet I still beat my opponent 8-3, he was the best person I played all year and even a little self-doubt fueled my veins till I secured the break taking a 3-1 lead I then later expanded it to 5-1 and hell could of beat him 6-1 if we were playing regular sets had I not decided to fall into a lapse at deuce point haha. Some person from the club team asked me if I could travel to the gainesville tournament since they are short a man. Pretty sweet, too bad I don't feel like missing a class on friday, they travel pretty far that's pretty cool though.

Yay I'm undefeated!! Once I get my regular racquets it will be pure pwnage--for all of those 1337 geeks out there.

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[06 Oct 2005|04:03pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Computer science sucks, it's such a waste of my time it's not hard. It's not the challenge but more the fact I missed my pretest last week because I didn't know the lab closed at four on fridays. Utter bull shit.

So all that sweating over nothing, my Western Civ test turned out to be an A and I have an A for the mid term. Wish I could say the same for Math 115. Sooooo booooored, I hate writing in this thing but I feel I neglect it when I don't, it's because I don't wish to write these stupid updates of my life but I wanted more of a sanctity for my thoughts. I don't think I express them well here perhaps the overall inclusion of just about every public entity that wishes to read. Or lack of any real substance, that might be it. I really don't want to go home this weekend, it depresses me to go back there. I'd rather be bored here than in Columbus.


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[06 Oct 2005|12:41am]
[ mood | amused ]

So why is Carson Daily not funny, I just choked on my sprite at his unfunnyness!

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[03 Oct 2005|01:32am]
[ mood | bored ]

Well today was met with the severe opposition of monotony! Atleast I put the emphasis on tennis today, I took down my opponent in convincing fasion. Nevertheless, I did not eat anything before the match and was gasping for air after about every point. I choose not to blame the cigarettes, I don't do that in college, so it must of been the lack of energy.

So to rectify this situation, I went to publix and bought myself the first of my groceries of the year. I summoned up the strength and while my laundry was drying I took the initiative.

I'm so bored, I hate going to history at 9 in the morning, I hate Math 115 it sucks, and English bores me.

We respond to incentives to produce, if there were no incentives why would I want to better my skills if I wasn't going to get compensated. As my Economics teacher says, I must have the competency, to later be compensated. So they put a price on knowledge, only because everything revolves around incentives. I do my work because I get rewarded, that is my incentive. Teachers teach because they get an income, and they strive to get better because there is an incentive to compensate them.


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[21 Sep 2005|08:24pm]
( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(1) Grease
(2) Pirates of the Caribbean
( 3) Boondock Saints
(4 ) The Mexican
(5 ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(6 ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
(7) The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(8) Napoleon Dynamite
(9 ) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(10) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
( 11) Jason X
(12) Scream
( 13) Scream 2
( 14) Scream 3
( 15) Scary Movie
( 16) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( 17) American Pie
( 18) American Pie 2
(19) American Wedding
(20) Harry Potter
(21) Harry Potter 2
(22) Harry Potter 3
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(23) The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
( )The Village
(24 ) Donnie Darko
( ) Lilo & Stitch
( ) Finding Nemo
(25 ) Finding Neverland
( ) 13 Ghosts
(26) The Grinch
(27 )Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
(28) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(29) Along Came Polly
(30) Deep Impact
(31) KingPin
(32) Never Been Kissed
(33) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
(34) Eight Crazy Nights
(35) A Cinderella Story
( ) the Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )passport to Paris
(36) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
() Final Destination 2
(37 ) Halloween
(38 ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
(39 ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(40 ) Practical Magic
(41 ) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(42 ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(43) Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
(44 ) The Day After Tomorrow
(45) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky
(46 ) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
(47 ) Gothika
(48 ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(49 ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
(50) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
(51) Seven
(52) Ocean's Eleven
(53) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(54) Bedazzled
(55) Predator I
(56 ) Predator II
(57) Independence Day
() Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(58 ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(59 ) Sideways
(60 ) Mars Attacks
(61 ) Event Horizon
(62 ) Ever After
(63) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(64) X-Men
(65) X-2: X-Men United
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
(66 )freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(67 ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(68) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(69) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(70) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(71) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) A Walk to Dismember
(72) Boogeyman
(73) Hitch
(74 ) The Fifth Element
(75) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(76) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(77) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(78) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(79) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(80) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
(81) Air Force One
(82) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(83) Sound of Music
(84) Parent Trap 1
( ) Parent Trap 2
( ) The Burbs
(85) The Terminator
(86) Terminator 2
(87) Terminator 3
( ) Empire Records
(88 ) SLC Punk
(89 ) Meet Joe Black
(90) Nightmare Before Christmas
(93 ) The Silence of the Lambs
(92) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart HuckabeesBody
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[17 Sep 2005|02:20am]
Well, the coldplay concert was cancelled, Chris Martin got sick. How unreliable, that happened to me when Omarr Rodriguez-Lopez got sick and The Mars Volta had to cancel at roskilde. Well I was going to see it with Amber and her sister, however, since that wasn't happening tonight I took the opportunity to go home and spend the time with Amber.
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[02 Sep 2005|03:31pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Last night was a night of rocking out! With the bounding double bass and exhillarating guitar riffs gave me the chills to endure for a lifetime. Saw As I lay Dying and Killswitch Engage, rocked out pretty hard, my voice was gone by the end of the night.

I'm sitting in english not paying attention, I have the arrogance to believe that I know how to write better than the rest. hOpefully I can prove that.!

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[10 Aug 2005|04:24pm]
[ mood | tired ]

My eyes are heavy, I heard my phone ring 3 times before the clock stroked 12 and it started to piss me off. So today was the big day...for Heritage, those children going back to the long halls, wearing their newly issued Uniforms for the year 2005/06. While I lay in my bed dreaming about days gone by. Oh how I wonder what it would feel like walking in their...not the experience but wearing those stupid uniforms.

My summer is winding down and truthfully it is kind of sad. Has it reached fullfillment...I don't know, in some ways yes. My room needs to be cleaned, it kind of depresses me. but oh well!

I've been back for over a month, in a lot of ways I enjoyed this more than Europe.

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[06 Jun 2005|10:47pm]
[ mood | good ]

Amber and I ate apple pie today.

I go to Europe tomorrow how fucking sweet is that.

Fucking Roskilde has a crazy lineup 19 more days~!!~!!~!~!~!!!


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[04 Jun 2005|10:42pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I bought some nice clothes that Amber picked out how fortunate.

Yay, Europe on Tuesday, should be something...Party~!

I have to pack tomorrow which is not something I wish to do but whaaaatever...

Wendys credit card thing screwed up, took like 5 minutes to finally work, almost made me look embarrassed...Lucky


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[03 Jun 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

I saw Cinderella Man with Amber earlier tonight, it was a pretty good movie. Much of the fighting had my heart racing, and I just wanted to join in and help Russell Crowe. Mr. Land was there, I laughed at his silly haircut. The new malco theatre is pretty nice and now we can enjoy movies much like Starkville already does. How delightful.


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[23 May 2005|05:04pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Holy shit was that was a good time.

Cleanup is a bitch.


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